I have been in the weirdest state for the past week or so. Incredibly introspective. This is the side of me that I don’t believe anybody can really fully relate to or understand unless they could jump into my brain and see the mess of thoughts that cycle through. There is no point in trying to describe or make sense of it. At the end of it my only rationale is to conclude that life is strange. Everything changes yet nothing really does at the same time. Things just feel odd to say the least.
Sometimes I can’t help but wonder if God is really just a big jokester, throwing us all out here to fend for ourselves. When you rise above yourself for a moment sometimes you realize that humanity just seems like a big joke. What are we even doing here? I can’t help but wonder. Our mere existence is too much for me to comprehend or fathom. Here I am outside of it all – all of our struggles, petty feelings, cycles of failure and feeling sorry for ourselves, hours spent on worry, regret, nostalgia. It just all seems so useless and small.
Eventually I will find my way back on track, I am sure.
